Varaveena… 

I’m just chilling …. preparing for mahashivaratri. Doing my yoga practices. All for that night – 24 th February. I cannot wait! If I should explain mahashivaratri- I don’t think I’d stop writing :p I’ll be going to the ashram on 19th. I can already sense some  overwhelming experiences and I’m more than grateful for all of it. Anyway, right now I’m just chilling. Totally laid back. It’s beautiful 🙂 listening to this song – it’s just too good. 

I know that there’s going to be some serious work to do after a few days. Should start applying for colleges, mahashivaratri and cousin’s marriage coming up- I don’t know, more changes 😀 but right now, this song reminds me of the time when I used to learn classical music – oh What would I do to start learning it again! Varaveena- the song is so soothing and just what I need right now. 

Have no clues for my tomorrows. I just can’t guess. But right now. This song on repeat. Sunlight coming through my window … 🙂 it’s good. 

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Let go…

Graceful


What’s more graceful than life and death itself. Especially, death. It’s perfection. Death is always on fleek. This leaf in particular, I found him nicely fallen in the shape of a heart after his green time up on a tree …. letting go with utmost grace. 🙂 

To the tip of the end. 

Kanyakumari … we went there just to welcome the sun. A very mystical place, thick with history. 
That morning, we woke up to the alarm and rushed to the beach- with just clean teeth and mobiles with cameras. I was hoping it would be a quiet place with less people. While we reached there, it was just the opposite. Kids…sadhus… old people … youngsters.. the place was looking like a fare- and I just couldn’t believe that every single person was there that early morning, just for the sun. He rose everyday, everywhere, didn’t he? No matter what- he rose. People died, suffered, laughed, lived – he still rose. Whether we welcomed him or not, he was there every morning. It just amused me that we were all there in such huge numbers to see the sun on one hand. Like we had never spotted that huge guy around ever before. On the other hand, there were goosebumps on my body and not out of cold. We were a bunch of people … alive and throbbing, gathered on the beach… the salt water lapping against our feet… waiting for the king to light us up. Waiting to give him the grandest welcome. It was as if I was in a concert and the sunrise was the music we were there to listen to. A contrary to all of this- there was no grand welcoming when the sun did rise, eventually. No trumpets were blown, flowers thrown- nothing royal, really. It happened quietly. As it dawned, it dawned upon me too that it’s the same even when the greatest of events happen within you. like my dispeller of darkness had quoted once. 

Getting a life. 

I know I know I know …. it’s been a long long long time 😀 but … hey ! How you doin eh ? 😉😬 I’ve been travelling and travelling and well…. travelling. Ooh yes… and been a lazy bum. Day before Yesterday… shit the the roof. I woke up (after a nap in the afternoon 😬#detailsdoe) with a bad fever, cough and a queasy stomach. Yesterday morning, the fever got severe and I puked and was still feeling pukish but nothing came (#detailsdoe) we went to the doctor and now I’m okay. The weather here is just spooky. Anyway, I almost died day before yesterday. The experience has changed me. It got me thinking…. what am I doing with my life ? 🤔 it’s so brief. And I’m not wasting time- I’m wasting my life. It’s goddammit ticking away. So…. let me just get a life and post a blog for god sakes! Because that’ll end poverty, hunger, the jallikattu (traditional Tamil sport) ban and just change everything :p trust me.. all of this, it’s not me it’s the vodk… ahm cough syrup talking 😀 (no, seriously, don’t go for alcohol or drugs, there are better ways you can get hiiighhhh) I have a lot to share. But for now, I’m still alive. I want to live beyond this shitty brain of mine- it’s always … no, no , don’t do it … no no.like …. Screw your no … I’m a big YEAAAAAAHHHH to life 😀 

That’s a lovely cow 😍 basically represents the fact that I’m a big fat yes to jallikattu 🙌 which peta India is trying to ban without any understanding of the tradition and the science behind it. This is it for now. I’m outtie 😀 

Ssshhhh…. chaos! 

Chaos“>Chaos


You want to join them in that cuddle don’t you? 😂❤️ I’d been to my brother’s residential school to pick him up for holidays 😀 he took me to his hostel through a shortcut or that’s what he called it…and inside an unbuilt ummm building …in that concrete and mess were these lovely little cupcakes. Huddled close in a cute bundle … just like my brother is stuck on my back as I write this -.- he’s leaving to school tomorrow and I just warned him that I’d write crap about him if he doesn’t stop killing me. :p quiet as a puppy he walks out of the room. 😀 

Transmogrifying…always. 

Transmogrify“>Transmogrify
Every single thing is a gathering of the Mother Earth on this planet. From gross to subtle. It’s amazing how soil transforms into so much life …in just too many intricate ways. It’s that soil and manure which has transformed into this body…. and every other body. From solid concrete buildings to the light petal of a flower and the fragrance it emanates. As the man says… it’s not dirt, it’s the life giving material. This picture- the magical transformation of soil into a gentle flower was taken in goa again. The weird thing is that not many people are receptive to this magic. The magic always is. It’s everywhere and constantly happening, yet not many stop and notice. This reminds me of a quote by someone who’s more than a guru to me… “in the vastness of the cosmos, everything is going perfect, but one nasty little thought in your mind can make it a bad day. That is lack of perspective.” -Sadhguru. 

So, the next time you want a sprinkle of magic in your life- you don’t have to go watch transformers or avengers… instead, you pay attention to life 😀 

In the lap of darkness. 

Shine“>Shine

Phew! Yup 😀 I’m back. I took this picture in Isha 😀 light is a limited happening in reality. Be it the sun or a candle like this one. It’s darkness that prevails vastly. It’s nothingness that can hold the entire existence. Where there’s that nothingness or darkness… there’s a possibility of light to be. Where there’s light… there’s shine. Here’s a small amount of that in the lap of dark. Want to write more but battling the limitations of time and mind. I’m basically saying that I’m lazy and complaining about time being limited :p but I will be back with another post. Because finally! I want to write 😂🙈